the coffee blog of Matthew P. Williams aka cpl593h

Roasting

2006-09-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

The word on the new roasting methodology is this: SWEEEEEEEET

I'm extremely pleased with the results. I'm very excited about it. Not only that, my roaster is in a brand new housing. All the control features, including the variac, are in one single unit. I swap-out multiple split-wired poppers because of the modular design. Not only that, I can easily switch between bean mass temperature PID input profiling or inlet air temperature PID input profiling. In the near future, once I get the second PID relay powered, I can switch the control PID to the monitor PID and datalog inlet air temp if I want. Or I can easily switch things around so that the fan is at constant speed and I profile manually by controlling voltage to the heater. Basically, it's all together very flexible.

There's still a lot to play with, but basically the roasts I'm getting are better than before. I have never been able to coax this kind of sweetness from the bean. Not only that, but the cup is much (I really hate to use such a cupping cop-out qualifier) smoother than before. Very round and juicy, not a trace of astringency or dryness.

Photos to come once I am settled back into school...

Roasting again

2006-09-08T20:01:00.000-07:00

I'm back home now with quite a bit of free time. I'm getting back to using my fluid air bed roaster and I am working on fine tuning its operation.

I'm more closely monitoring air inlet temperature to see how I can influence that roast variable. Tomorrow I am doing some cupping of some of my first trials. So far the roasts look great. This new roast process is quite different than what I have done in the past. I am not going to say too much about it yet in case it yields awful results, but I'll know soon if it's worthwhile.

I've been roasting on the messy garage workbench. The roaster with insulation on the chamber:

A little hotter roast for chocolatey roast tastes for espresso. I need a Fluke meter. The gap between process value and setpoint value is kind of intentional. I need a Fluke meter:

Cooling:

New post from Philly

2006-09-06T18:07:00.000-07:00

Look, an update! I haven't written anything in a while because there hasn't been much to write about. I've been occupied with work and travel, but now summer is coming to a close. Soon I will be back at school where I have plenty of time for coffee.

I've been brewing some great coffees in my Chemex, which is the brewer I am sticking with. Peru, Panama, Ethiopia Lekempti, and others have made their way into my cup. I am sitting on a lot of different coffees right now so there is a lot to look forward to.

I am in Philadelphia right now visiting a friend. I've been here for a week and I am leaving tomorrow afternoon. While I was here I had the extreme pleasure of visiting Chestnut Hill Coffee Co., now home to the legendary John Hornall.

I did a writeup on coffeegeek. It's too lengthy to paste here, so CLICK HERE

John Hornall is the real deal and Sultan Malikyar really has his shop together. It was really an inspiration to hang out with John; on day one he told me I should open up my own shop someday. He's a straight shooter so it sounded like a good idea coming from him. Today he let me play behind the bar a little and get some use out of the Linea.

According to John, my production distribution (i.e. how I dose and distribute behind the counter) is Dismas Smith style. It's a two finger back and forth sweep I picked up from the folks at Barefoot. It worked alright except I needed to compact more on the sweeps because I was underdosing a little.

Between two days I spent about 4 hours at Chestnut Hill Coffee Co. I loved every minute of it; The staff was great, all the products are top notch, and the location is awesome. The most important thing to come out of this is a reappraisal of what I really want out of coffee. This really put things into perspective for me and now I really need to think about how I am going to get my own shop sometime down the line.

In other news, I have a new camera. It's a point and shoot digital, but it really gets the job done for me and I love to use it. I have a FLICKR ACCOUNT that I will be updating regularly.

I have plenty of photos of Chestnut Hill Coffee Co. on flickr.

Long time no post

2006-08-08T20:02:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've posted. Between my impacted (but compact) work schedule and travels, I haven't had much time to post. There have been some great things to post about, but updates will come in the near future...

Supreme Beanery

2006-07-17T22:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday there was an open house at Supreme Bean in North Hollywood. To be honest, I didn't really know much of anything about Supreme Bean prior to the event, mainly because they are a commercial roaster without a storefront. They recently finished their main cupping/show room so they opened it up to local coffee enthusiasts.

It was quite an impressive event. The new La Marzocco GB5 was on display. Not only on display, but out... for us to use. That was a real kick in the pants. There was a Swift grinder and a handful of other grinders for our use, most of them filled with some of Supreme Bean's great blends, and a few of them open for our own blends. There was a "make your own blend" station open to us. If I can remember correctly, there was a Brazil, a dark roasted Sumatra, a Java, some Malabar, some Mokha Harrar, Sulawesi, India Pearl Mountain, Tanzanian Peaberry... there were a few more. There were some Chemex pourovers available for us so we could cup our blend before we made it as espresso. I liked the Chemex system to much I ordered one today.

Aside from the great coffee, facility, and equipment, there were some really great people in attendance. There were some really big names there that I didn't talk to: Tim Castle and Ken Nye. To my great shock and surprise, Jim Schulman showed up. He was in town for the SCAA open house that I missed the day before. I only talked to Jim Schulman briefly and told him that I've really learned so much from him. It's true... Jim Schulman has really contributed a great deal to the coffee community and it just shows you what a home coffee enthusiast can do. I had some great chitchat with Marshall Fuss, whom I was really hoping to meet. He was very pleased to hear that I decided not to mangle my Zaffiro.

I also met some very amiable people from the coffee forums. I was able to touch base with a few people from the Santa Cruz area and I look forward to coordinating with them when I'm back at school. Ian, the "nice gentleman" that bought the Synesso baskets... what a piece of work. There's someone to avoid... I'm entirely kidding and I only say that because he told me that he has read my blog, so... there you go, Ian. It was a real treat meeting some local coffee guys, and the Supreme Bean crew was exemplary.

I'm still glowing from the event, and the Synesso baskets are near perfect. I've been pulling some great shots of Brazil Daterra Santa Colomba... not much time for espresso before work and definitely no room for coffee after, but that's only 3 days a week. That reminds me... it's bedtime.

Gayo... and Synesso baskets on the way

2006-07-10T22:47:00.000-07:00

Today I pulled some great shots of the Sumatra Gayo Mountain. I ended up pulling some slightly restricted 31 second shots at a temperature quite a bit lower than I usually go. The reults were syrupy with a sweet rustic chocolate flavor. Definitely rustic.

I posted on alt.coffee about Synesso baskets. LM's baskets are terrible, just terrible. They sizes are all over the map and most of the time the hole array is off center. Apparently, the Synesso baskets are the best thing on the market right now, according to Mark Prince.

Tonight a nice gentleman from the San Fernando Valley e-mailed me about ordering baskets from Synesso together since they charge a $15 handling fee for orders under $50. It turns out he's going to the Supreme Bean roastery open house on Sunday too, so I'll be able to get my baskets then. What a great stroke of luck

He also sent me photos of the Synesso baskets. They are just what I'm looking for. There is a 14g double ridgeless double, an 18g ridgeless triple, and a 21g straight walled ridged triple. The hole distribution is much tighter than a LM basket and the hole aperture is supposed to be smaller too. The bottom surface of the basket is also much thicker than the LM basket. I'm really looking forward to experimenting with these things. The ranges in sizes are extra promising.

Ay ay ay...

2006-07-10T00:38:00.000-07:00

I didn't realize that I hadn't posted for a whole week. That's bad news for me - I need to get posting so I don't forget about this blog all together...

Not too much to say, I guess. I've been roasting and pulling single origin espresso: Brazil Daterra Santa Colomba, Sumatra Gayo Mountain, and Java Private Estate type Prince. The first two came from the wonderful folks at the Green Coffee Buying Club. The third comes from Sweet Maria's, but the GCBC recently distributed some Prince as well.

The good news about the BDSC: it has similar flavors to last year's Sweet Yellow: graham crackers and rhubarb. Great single origin shot. The flavor isn't as clear and distinct as the Sweet Yellow... the Santa Colomba is a natural process after all. I didn't really spend enough time with it to get the most out of it, but I have a very large batch resting for the coming week.

I only quickly dialed in the Gayo tonight. The process is like this: pull the first shot with the Mazzer set just to the finer side of the factory "start here" sticker. The dose and tamp is always the same for all coffees at this stage, unless it's something with a certain moisture content and density that necessitates updosing to get the right puck dimensions (squish factor). Pull the shot at group channel idle temp at 191 (not exactly sure what this translates to in the basket, but it's a consistent benchmark for me). Adjust the grind accordingly. Pull another shot, and adjust the grind again if necessary. At this point I adjust the temperature. Once the temp sweet spot
is found, then I can play with the dose, tamp, and extraction space. That's the fun part. This is a pretty standard procedure for dialing in a bean.

Today with the Gayo I only got as far as the pre-temperature adjustment point when the base volume is established. That means I get to play tomorrow with the rest of the Gayo, and then maybe move on to the Prince. So far, the Gayo is chocolatey and slightly tobaccoey. It's fairly sweet, but not as sweet as I think it should be so it's going to take some toying with to squeeze the chocolate and sweetness out of it.

So far, my blog has displayed a shameful lack of photos. I don't have a camera right now. After a remarkable beach walkabout, my camera decided to stop working. It just didn't want to function at all. I took it apart and put it back together. I have the touch (shake those hands, shake those hands), so taking things apart normally fixes things. I don't plan to get another camera until Autumn.

More bad coffee in Santa Cruz

2006-07-02T20:21:00.000-07:00

In my last time in downtown Santa Cruz before I left for the summer I noticed that a new coffee shop is coming to downtown. I had never heard of "Bad Ass Coffee" before, but they advertised an all Hawaiian coffee lineup. Just what that second-wave town needs, another gimmicky second-wave coffeeshop. I didn't really look into Bad Ass Coffee until today when I noticed a job posting from Badass on the Viva Barista website.

Apparently the only qualification you need to work at Bad Ass Santa Cruz is the ability to create latte art. Granted, that's not such an easy thing to do, but why focus on latte art as the prime qualifier above other vital barista skills? How many people do you expect to apply to your coffee place that can pour latte art? Why would a third-wave barista apply to your schticky, gimmicky coffee franchise?

I took a look at Bad Ass Coffee's company website. It's a franchise. Read: corporate supply chain as a barrier to freshness. Take a look at this:

"We serve American-grown, Hawaiian coffee from Moloka'i, Kauai, Maui and of course our 100% Kona. Our distinctive Hawaiian Signiture blend (10% Hawaiian coffee and beans from around the world), our unique signature espresso drinks, and other related food and beverage items. Along with our liquid coffee business, we also offer our fine line of branded gourmet beans in retail bags. Our stores also carry an extremely unique line of retail merchandise including custom branded mugs, hats, T-shirts, chocolates, macadamia nuts and much more. All are graciously offered in an extraordinary tropical atmosphere that whispers Hawaii. Our distinctive vivid look, combined with our absolute commitment by every franchise to maintain the highest degree of customer service, cleanliness and excellence in products and service, make our stores extremely desirable in any location."

Hawaiian atmosphere? Branded merchandise? Folks, this is the Islands Burgers of coffee.

In the "Our Brand" section of the webpage:

"Ever since the launch of our first Bad Ass Coffee Company™ store, we’ve dedicated ourselves to establishing our company as a strong and distinctive brand within the gourmet coffee marketplace. We continue our efforts to increase our brand and visibility in a number of unique ways. First and foremost is our company’s dedication and commitment to offering a high-quality product and unmatched customer service . This really makes us stand out from the rest. Second, it’s our specific “nitch” market in the coffee service industry and the fact that we specialize in American-grown, 100% Kona and other Hawaiian coffee products. Third, is our eye-catching name, which is unmistakable and unforgettable. Add to that our distinctive mascots, Jack & Slack. We are continually developing and incorporating a consistent style guide for all of our stores, individual branded products and merchandise. Fourth, is our impeccable marketing, which incorporates our branded image in a variety of new and unusual ways. This is embodied in all of our advertising and promotions at the local, regional and national levels. Fifth and finally, it’s our outstanding and consistently remarkable store interior designs that create a fun, stimulating and relaxing atmosphere in which to enjoy our delicious Kona coffee. All this combines to make our brand clearly identifiable and highly desirable."

Why am I so irritated by this? Schtick 'n' gimmick - not only in atmosphere, marketing, and merchandising, but in the coffee itself. It's a joke and Santa Cruz is still dying for a third-wave shop.

Oh man, ohhhhh maaaannn

2006-07-02T16:41:00.000-07:00

I just wrapped up a stellar espresso session. Recently I have been pooh-poohing Brazil as an espresso base in favor of a Java and Sumatra base. The reason for shunning Brazil is the characteristic Brazilian nuttiness that doesn't mesh well with the fruit flavors I try to highlight in my blends. The particular Java and Sumatra combination I have been using is sweet, fudgy, and surprisingly clean, with a thick, velvety body.

Brazil: I'm sorry, baby - I did you wrong. Please take me back.

Last week I roasted up some old-crop Daterra Sweet Yellow that I have had vacuum packed since I got it sometime last year. It's a pulped natural yellow Icatu from the fine folks at Daterra. I had previously used the DSY in blends as a base component alongside a dry-process Brazil, but this was back in my lever-machine days as an espresso neophyte when I'd blend by the seat of my pants based on conjecture because the combination of my barista skills and lever machine inconsistencies yielded paltry results regardless of the blend. I used most of the DSY that I had left as a blend base for iced coffee, so I never really experienced the DSY on its own. I finally tried it as a single origin espresso, and now that it's gone, I regret how I've neglected it.

When I pulled shots with it the day before yesterday, it was still a little too fresh. However, I was amazed how fluffy yet viscous the pour was. It was like my espresso machine was dispensing soft-serve ice cream. The shots were great, but still too fresh. I got it reasonably dialed in then set it aside until today.

Oh man, ohhhh maaannn. The creamy, fluffy viscosity was still there. During the pour I could move the demitasse up and down in the stream and the crema would pillow onto itself and leave beautiful marbling because the tiger stripes were so well differentiated even in the cup. As a short (not sure of exact volume) 26 second pour it was like a buttered graham cracker. Juicy, creamy, certifiably dreamy. I eased up on the grind just a little and pulled a 27 second normale that was still like pudding. God shot. I can't believe the flavors from this. It's like the graham cracker crust of a rhubarb pie. Buttery, graham crackery, clean and sweet with wonderfully balanced acidity and an intriguing rhubarb finish... but now it's all gone. That was the last of the Daterra Sweet Yellow and the last of any pulped natural Brazil in my green stash.

Another great part of today's session is the performance of my machine. I have been contemplating adding a rope heater to the E61 group to level out the Zaffiro's temperature instability. Even with the boiler PIDed, the grouphead is instable because the E61 thermosyphon was meant to be fed with heat exchanger water at a significantly higher temperature than brew boiler temperature. Nevertheless, today's solid routine at this temperature was predictable and easily controlled. Not bad at all! I'll need a few more sessions like this to convince me to not ugly up the E61.

2006-06-29T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today I received the rope heater I will be using to heat my grouphead. Sadly, I will have to tarnish the beautiful aesthetic of the e61 group - the heat instability of a brew-temperature thermosyphon just has to be mitigated.

Home Depot never has anything that I want and I always get angry when I go there. It's ridiculous that such a huge place with so many items can't fulfil my needs. Maybe it's just me, I don't know. They didn't have any thermal putty necessary for the rope heater operation.

I feel like my roasts with the genecafe have been getting better and better due to new profiling methodology. However, I'm afraid that my genecafe is starting to fail for whatever reason and will need to be sent in for warranty service.

That's it for now. Not much, but I can't get away from blogging for too long or else I'll neglect it.

What the hell.

2006-06-27T18:22:00.000-07:00

I called Espresso Parts Northwest today and talked briefly with Devon in parts department about portafilter basket sizing. I told him that I have an EPNW 58mm tamper and the double ridgeless basket and that I was looking for something with a better fit. He said that that's pretty much it.

I can't believe nobody is marketing a matched tamp and basket set - it makes perfect sense to for the tamp to the basket but at this point the best option of doing this is sending in a basket to Reg Barber to have a tamp sized to it. That's more time, effort, and money than anyone should have to deal with for a decent match.

Before EPNW picked up production of the espressocraft tamper line, the espressocraft website said that a portafilter basket to match their tamper was in the works. EPNW picked up production on the tamps, the blurb about basket development disappeared, and no one really said anything. EPNW hasn't mentioned it even after being asked on the HB forums. I just don't get it.

Round of espresso today

2006-06-27T13:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a nightmare for espresso. I couldn't pull any decent shots at all. I first tried to pull some triples with my 21g basket (with off-center holes array, the piece of garbage). Channelling like crazy. The differences yielded from grind adjustment were all over the place. I switched to my ridgeless "La Marzocco" double basket.

First of all, I don't care much for this basket. I have come to prefer the straight wall design, which this is not. My tamper, a true 58mm, is too small for this basket. That adds another hurdle to jump over for my espresso routine.

Changing baskets didn't help so I changed coffees. Instead of my four bean blend I went for a single origin: Ethiopia dry-process Sidamo Finchewa. This was a lucky buy off the green coffee co-op a while back. It's old crop and is showing it's age, but it's still an exceptional fruit soup coffee. It didn't do the trick yesterday. It was so humid and I hadn't pulled any shots in at least three weeks because of finals and the move back home.

Today was a different story. Unfortunately, I did have a shaky start at first, but then everything fell into place. I finally got the extraction space down, then I got the temp dialed in. For some reason, the Zaffiro seems to be more temp stable here than in Santa Cruz... This coffee needs some serious updosing to get the extraction space right. It's just one of those squishy coffees. This is the first time I've roasted this Sidamo for single origin shots with my new genecafe roaster.

The shots have been coming out so custardy, chocolatey, and fruity. Chocolate like 85% cacao Valrhona. Fruit like cherries and blueberries as a standard shot and more into the prune spectrum as a ristretto. The sweet spot standard double seems to be 28 second 2oz. pour heavily updosed. I can't give a specific temp reading because I measure from the e61 hex channel and this doesn't measure intra-shot temperatures very well. I just use the temp reading to get the machine to a specific starting shot temperature, and I'm not sure how this correllates to actual shot temperature.

For my last batch of Finchewa single origin espresso I'm going to need to tweak the profile a bit. The taste is slightly indicative of a roast that is slightly too hot.

I also tried to variac my machine during extraction to control intra-shot pressure. I heard from somewhere that Jim Schulman was having some success in controlling pump pressure with a variac so I wanted to try it out. Previously I was toying around a bit with controling extraction pressure by opening the steam valve ever so slightly - one of the advantages of a single boiler machine. It had produced some good results, but the adjustment is too sensitive to do it consistently. However, the variac seems to work very well for ramping the extraction pressure down 1.5-2 bars during extraction. It seemed to improve the clarity of the flavor to some degree, but more experimentation will have to be done.

GCBC goes to the source: Panama?

2006-06-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

Origin trips are a luxury of the coffee professional. Origin trips are educational vacations to places where coffee is produced. Ethiopia is a popular destination, as are Brazil and the Central American countries.

Today it dawned on me that the Green Coffee Buying Club, a cooperative of mostly home roasters, would be the perfect avenue to organize an origin trip. Joe thought it sounded like a good idea so we brought it to the boards. We found out that we have a lot of connections on the boards. It looks like this origin trip is completely feasible. Not only that, but it shouldn't be too expensive either. The idea was enthusiastically received. At this point, Panama is looking like the perfect destination in winter.

The past and the future

2006-06-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

This is the first post of my resurrected coffee blog. At some point in January I started a coffee blog while I was adjusting to my new espresso machine and modifying it to my liking. No one read my blog except Jake, and then only with some amount of coaxing.

So here begins a fresh blog. What was the impetus to start anew? During a long drive home this weekend I was able to catch up on portafilter.net podcasts. I had fallen behind on listening to podcasts primarily because of school. I didn't find myself sitting down in one spot for 2 hours at a time, and I don't have an ipod (nor to I plan to get one). I have really been missing out... I really enjoy Nick and Jay's commentary, conversation, guests, music, etc. It's a real show with two real guys that know what they are talking about. I have nothing but the utmost respect for Nick and Jay. Anyway... I was listening to podcast #41, the interview with WBC champ Klaus Thomsen. It was inspiring to say the least. Klaus, as far as I could tell from the interview, is extremely passionate about coffee. Not only that, he's humble - humble in the sense that he admits that he has so much to learn about coffee. After the podcast finished I felt my passion for coffee revitalized. I asked myself "am I that passionate about coffee?" Affirmative.

I am extremely passionate about coffee, and I know that while I am at the consumer level my capacity to pursue coffee is very limited. I read travelogues of origin trips, I hear insider talk on podcasts, I read industry professionals' posts on various forums, and I feel left out. I want to be in the thick of it. I feel like it's the place for me. Unfortunately, there are a few things holding me back from entering the coffee industry at this point.

First is my education. I am a full time student during the school year. Earning a post-graduate degree is very important to me. I'm still working on my bachelor's degree so I could be in school for a while. I would love to pursue organic chem., environmental sustainability, or any other field that is applicable to coffee, however, as a transfer student I am very limited to what I can accomplish as an undergrad. Linguistics and electronic/experimental music I can do, but this will get me nowhere in coffee.

Second is my geography. During the summer I live in the LA area. The greater LA area is virtually a coffee vacuum, with a few exceptions. I'm not very mobile because I don't drive anymore, and I'm not about to start working for a coffee place for 3 months. In the remainder of the year I am in Santa Cruz. Surprisingly, Santa Cruz is also a coffee vacuum. It's a shame because SC is a place where a third-wave place could really take off. Santa Cruz Coffee Roasters is unfortunately the best place in Santa Cruz. They are a dark roaster with shitty espresso equipment, unknowledgable baristas, and preground for their brew bar.

Third is the biggest employment mistake of my life. Coffee Klatch was a big mistake. Leaving Coffee Klatch wasn't a mistake, but starting to work for them was a mistake. If I never started working for them I wouldn't have learned what I learned from Mike Perry, but I wouldn't have had to leave. I left in a really shitty way. I haven't discussed my reasons for leaving the Klatch with many people, and I never wanted to use a public forum to get into any details because that's inappropriate. However, this blog is my personal space and I can get into it all I want. It's something I need to get over because I feel like it's holding me back.

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Last May I was getting some coffee and lunch at Coffee Klatch. It's close enough to my former school so I was a semi-regular customer for a while. I saw a help wanted sign in the window and decided to ask about what was available. I started home roasting about a month and a half before and I thought working for a great coffee place would be a really great change of pace from working as a waiter at a local restaurant. I asked for an application but had to wait around for a while for one so I struck up a conversation with Heather Perry. I applied and was able to schedule an interview right away. I interviewed soon after and asked what kind of job needed to be filled. They were looking for someone to work both as a roasting assistant and behind the bar. I said I'd love to do both. I also said that I was a student at Citrus College and my education is very important, and that I would try to schedule night classes to accomodate morning work.

The interview with Cindy Perry went really well, then I had an interview with Mike Perry. He grilled me on coffee. It was very intimidating and he got me on things that I didn't know then as a very new home roaster. I watched their training videos and pretty much aced the barista exam. The decision to make me full time roasting assistant was based largely on my milk protein intolerance. I can't have any milk prodcuts, and obviously that doesn't make for a good barista (another thing holding me back, although I can slurp and spit). The job paid $10/hr. and seemed to have good hours. Roasting assistant - it sounded really good.

I started off doing well almost right away. Operating the Diedrichs machine and profiling roasts according to Mike's system came almost naturally to me. I caught on really quickly but I wasn't without stupid little mistakes typical to a new hire. Mike caught on that I was a quick learner and easy to work with (read: a total pushover) so he kept giving me more and more responsibility and challenging me more and more. Within two weeks I was roasting and blending on my own and soon after that I was creating the roast agenda. There was constant pressure on me to perform. A huge part of Klatch's roasting is wholesale and it eventually became clear that Mike wanted me running the show so he didn't have to. At one point 3.5 weeks into my employment at Coffee Klatch I realized that I was in too deep and I didn't put myself there. Mike and I were making a delivery to Anaheim. He said something to the effect of: "Remember where all these places are. Next month I'm going to be gone for a few weeks and you're going to be doing all this by yourself." So there I was, a few weeks into the job, with a huge responsibility thrust upon me and practically being told to put school off to the side because I needed to live this job. This kind of work isn't $10/hr., it's salaray with benefits and it's not at all what was sold to me when I was being offered the job.

The last straw came on the Friday morning of my fourth week there. It was supposed to be a day off because we had gotten a lot of work done that week. We got some samples in from Holland on Thursday so Mike decided that we were going to roast and cup on Friday. I asked Mike what we were going to use as a sample roaster. "I was hoping we could use your I-Roast." Mike intimidated the hell out of me so I didn't have the nerve to tell him that the I-Roast really isn't intended for consecutive roasts like he had in mind. Then a new order had come in so I had some more roasting to do the next day on top of the sample roasting. The order wasn't written down, just dictated to me. So the next day I came in and started to work on roasting the samples from Holland. Before Mike came in around noon everything started going wrong with the I-Roast. It was dying and it could hardly float beans. The roasts were just not going well even with a half-hour cooling in between roasts. It's just not meant to work like that. I tried my best to remember the order that was dicated to me, but I ended up roasting and blending the wrong thing. When Mike came in he asked how the samples were going. I had roasted about 3 sets - two of each origin - and he was expecting everything to be done at that point. Not only that, but he expected the order to be roasted and since I had made a mistake, nothing was done for the order. Mike was obviously irritated.

The lack of sleep had caught up to me at that point. I was getting up at 5 am every morning to go to work at 6. I had to heavily caffeinate myself throughout the day to keep myself going and I had to take sleeping pills at night to get to sleep. School was being neglected and my friends and family notived a huge shift in my behavior. My life revolved around my job and I didn't feel like myself at all. During the cupping I started to feel sick. The taste of coffee made me sick. That disturbed me the most because it was like coffee was betraying me. I was caffeinated out of my mind and I wanted to throw up but I had to keep cupping as best as I could - I hadn't cupped coffee prior to that. It was then that I decided that I couldn't work there anymore. After the cupping Mike started on about origin trips, Roasters Guild retreats, coffee conventions, etc., that he had in mind for me. It was absolutely clear that he wanted me around for a long time.

I felt like leaving was a perfectly rational decision. The job I was doing wasn't the job that I was offered. I didn't feel like myself, coffee wasn't enjoyable anymore, and the future of my education was threatened. I was afraid to leave, though. I heard horror stories of employees giving their two week notice and then being treated like shit until they left. That followed the trend of Mike not treating his employees very well - there were plenty of stories from perfectly good employees, from every employee but his daughters, in fact. He treated me well because I was doing a good job and taking the load off of him. I was terrified of confronting Mike - I didn't have the conidence or confrontational abilities I have now. I left by showing up early on Monday morning, leaving the box full of the remaining coffee samples I was supposed to roast over the weekend, and leaving a note explaining that I wasn't going to return to work. I explained that if he thought it was fair to do so, he may withold my next paycheck (the Friday of the cupping was the last day of the pay period), otherwise mail it to me. He did withold my paycheck, which made me feel less guilty for leaving the way I did - I worked two weeks, well over 8o hours with plenty of overtime, for free. Luckily, I had stayed with my previous employers while working at the Klatch so I had a job to return to after leaving the roasting gig.

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I haven't seen Mike or Heather Perry since I left because I have avoided the events where they were present: SCAA consumer homecoming and West Coast Barista Jam. I can't let this hold me back any longer.

Here's to the future of coffee...